“Two roads diverged in a wood and I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference.” i can’t dropout from school, that’s a fact;
i have 3 options after that
- go to college, work part time / intern ( coz 20 hr work limit )
- take gap year for 1 to 2 years, then go to college / dropout completely
- dropout after 12th and figure out way through life
there’s a lot of PROS and CONS in each of these options, and this decision might make / break my life, so i can’t just wing it and say well fuck later
now the first option
- COLLEGE directly after school
- i would have to study a lot now, coz they will consider 2nd term marks
- i can’t go fulltime on raid or authdeck or any of my projects after school, i would need to drop them and just work on it whenever i get time
- this is pretty game changing coz 1. i would lose the one leverage i have right now which is “young talent” after college, all my proof of work and leverage will be credited to that “degree”
- i would also lose industry experience coz “education” comes in the way
- but what will happen is that
- ill have mad stability after 4 years
- a degree isnt small, and it’ll help me get jobs and everything
- but 4 fucking years
- that’s not small lol
- i could be doing soooo many other things in those 4 years which i wouldn’t be able to coz again “education”
- pros over dropping out
- a lot of friends ( i mean i can make friends even if i dropout, but ill make a lot of friends if am in college, and ill get to experience real college life )
- easy pass to NA ( if i dropout it’s gonna be super hard to go to US or CA lol, you know the visa process )
- ill proll get very good education and a strong fundamental and meet a lot of high quality people
- ill get 4 years to have fun and experiments with whatever i want ( but that’ll involve doing a lot of things forced also for uni )
// feb 5 2025: i think i was under the assumption that i would take a loan
- DROPOUT
- not stable at all
- high risk high reward sitation
- risk is very high tho, i lowkey dont even wanna consider it- people say if ur smart and know how to make money, there’s no use for college.
- but bro
- i dont think am smart or rich so what’s the point 💀
- college will probably help me
- dropping out will be sooo much freedom - but i dont know if i really want it
- i can do whatever the fuck i want that time 💀travel, do whatever etc etc etc
- GAP YEAR
- the best possible solution right in middle of dropping out and going to college
- ill get the freedom i want, but college will be a bit later on in life ( 2 years 💀 )
- ill be older by that time, so ill be more mature when i travel
- ill have more than enough time to experiment, MAKE it if possible, and also just figure out what the fuck i want from life 💀
- if i dont use those years well, ill kms fr
- i can travel these 2 years, earn a lot, work like a madman while enjoying life
- i can earn enough or more to pay off college too
for this^ first i need marks i need to get into college at the same time i need to become really good at what i do so that work i do after school will be worth the break.
sep 27 2025
reading ts now is so fucking funny lmfao im actually going to keep this public so that people can see how fucking retarded i was in 2023